It's Been A While...

I know I haven't posted in a while and I would love to have a good reason for it, just as I would love to have a good reason for the vast amounts of food I have been eating recently. If I am honest I think the more food that I ate the easier it was for me to justify blocking out my feelings with eating more food. However, I went to a party Tuesday night and got a bit tipsy and it would take me ages to explain why I am motivated to lose weight again but basically I felt awful. I looked awful. Ugh I feel so disgusting and have put all that weight back on. I could sit here and cry all day about what I look like but I don't want to mope around feeling sorry for myself. I mean that wouldn't get the weight back off would it?!

Tomorrow is a new day. I am going to try and forget everything that I have eaten recently and try not to mention it again. I completely want a fresh start. I am going to weigh myself and record all of my measurements. I am not going to attempt any really low calorie diets such as the ABC or 2468 until after my birthday in March. Instead for this week until next Thursday (19 Feb - 25 Feb) I will stay under 800 calories but will be able to "bank" the calories, this means that any calories that I do not eat I will keep a note of them and if I go over I will just take it off the banked calories. I am hoping that this will prevent any binging. The week after (26 Feb - 4 Mar) will be similar, the limit will again be 800 calories, however this time I will not be banking calories.

I also need to start doing more exercise again. I am going to start going back to the gym and will try to go at least twice a week, however, sometimes this can be hard due to unforeseen weather conditions, such as the deep snow we have received over the past 24 hours, and exam revision. If I am unable to go to the gym at least twice a week I must do my fitness DVD in order to compensate for this.

I have not set any hard to achieve goals so it shouldn't be too hard to stick to the above. Tomorrow after I have weighed myself and written down my measurements I will think of some goals and maybe even rewards for when I have reached those goals as I have seen it mentioned on other blogs I have been reading and it seems to be working quite well for them.

I hope all is well for everybody, Stay strong x